Last year my family went through a lot. There was a mystery illness (that has since been healed) plaguing my mother amongst a host of other things that took place. A lot of things changed but one thing that stayed consistent was my grandmother constantly urging us to pray. I have prayed all my life. Like most of you, I learned to say grace and prayers at bed time. It was ritual. As an adult however, thats exactly where it stayed. I continued to pray but sadly not out of passion nor out of the desire to grow in God but merely out of obligation. I know I know! Horrible right? Ive never even uttered those word out loud before out of shame. Despite finding an amazing church home and attending small groups and youth services for over a year, same result. I felt closer to God.. Kind of. But after all that time I still felt like my spiritual growth was stunted. I continued to pray though. Empty hollow prayers with no passion. I finally felt some growth after I begin meditating. It was the closest I had felt to God in a long time (we’ll get into that later) but my prayer game was still weak despite being answered time after time. And after awhile sometimes I just wouldn’t. Except when I needed something or escaped another mess that I had created.I continued to pray but sadly not out of passion nor out of the desire to grow in God but merely out of obligation. Click To Tweet
That was until last month. I went to an event hosted by an amazing organization called She Who Dares. They were hosting a panel discussion at Bloomies and trust me it was amazing! I posed a question about tapping into your passions and received great feedback. Once it was over, I was approached by a lovely lady (angel?) that suggested I read the book Fervent by Priscilla Shirer. She poured so many amazing things into my life in that moment and I was sold. I had purchased the book for a friend but fro whatever reason had no desire to read it. Another one of my good friends had it, so I borrowed it from her that evening.
As soon as I started to read it, a light went off. I thanked “my angel” online and within days, she gifted me my very own copy. From there, I really dived in. I spent the Christmas holiday reading and writing prayers (as it encouraged you to d0) and Im happy its stuck with me. The book is perfect for anyone. Whether you’re a prayer warrior, a novice ( like me), or jut looking or perspective. It guides you step by step on why prayer is so important, how to do it, and how it not affects but protects your life.
It touched on every area prayer should be focused, and though it got a tad bit repetitive in some aspects, I did learn this about myself: I hadn’t lost my passion fro prayer, I had never found it. I realized that despite hearing that I needed to do it, I never rally grasped the why. Now I understand. So now armored with some strategy and intent , I finally have my passion fro prayer and let me tel you what a blessing that is!I hadn't lost my passion fro prayer, I had never found it. Click To Tweet
Have you ever found yourself in a spiritual rut? If so, how did you work your way out?